September 14, 2009
Dear family, friends and visitors,
I feel the need to write a little something. First, I would like to thank all of you who have supported me, especially those of you who have written letters and signed petitions to the governor in support of my plea for clemency. Your response has been truly wonderful.
As for me, my daily routine rarely changes here on the inside. Life keeps happening one way or another. In my current situation, with its busy-ness and struggle and confusion, there is no doubt that I sometimes feel exhausted and broken. But this also helps me, this ongoing challenge. I look at this as a spiritual journey, an upward climb with enormous possibilities for doing something fulfilling and meaningful with my life. I hope one day to take a public speaking message to young people in the community, to warn them about the terrible dangers of drugs, and stand before them as a living example, a woman who knows firsthand that life can turn for the worse when drugs are involved.
I have recently been informed that I am being ‘considered’ for clemency, and I have signed a release for my institutional record. Both are very good signs. I sometimes sit here and think about my future. There is the freedom I aspire to, more than anything. Freedom to be with family and loved ones. Then, I try to remind myself that whatever lies up ahead is not the best place for my concern. This moment is, what is taking place right now is where my best efforts belong. It is difficult to explain, only one who feels it knows it.
Many of the people who have seen this web site often say, “I can’t believe you have been away so long for that.” But I don’t fill my mind with, ‘Why me?’ Do I experience periods of deep questioning? Absolutely. As sad as my situation is, I am creating from it my own journey, and I am resolved to include every moment, every event of my life. In the meantime, I wait and remain hopeful. Know that I will accept life’s goodness in whatever happens.
Sincerely,
Mona
“Very often our immediate environment or circumstances are not under our control. But our choice of faith and love is always.”
Bo Lozoff
The Human Kindness Foundation
